Bloodlustbloodlust [bluhd - luhst] a desire for bloodshed
As a child I would internalize my traumas until it was too late or too difficult to put how I felt into words. This sometime resulted in cutting. I would inflect random cuts on myself to see what was inside causing me anger, telling me tails of betrayal, whispering the best method of insuring revenge and laughing at me when I bleed and still could not escape my own mind, ways and religion. As I grew older I learned that I was not alone in my suffering and that there were many cases in history were people were tormented and the signs eventually bled through to the surface. The writings I list under blood lust will, in many different ways, speak on these topics as they are a consistent issue in my everyday life.I don't see the glamour in suffering. I do however see the beauty in sacrifice.I was just settling into having to be human when Ann Rice's pen took the science fiction world by surprise. See more
